I’m still at my retreat from reality and finished a meditation a few hours ago and had a revelation. I have been writing my book for the past two years, along with being the CEO of my company, running a non-profit, being a mom, a private coach (Soul Blazer), a wife, leading retreats and workshops, being a sister, and a friend; I was pooped without realizing it because I’ve been moving at such a fast pace.
I have now come to the conclusion that when you try to make something happen, the constant energy you put into it may be getting in the way. I have been writing and re-writing my book trying to get it to be perfect and I realized that from taking a time out from it and looking at it with fresh eyes, I was able to solve the problems I had with it, without racking my brain. When you allow yourself to simply be, things start shifting and moving because you can only go as far as your mind will allow. If you’re constantly working to get ahead, you can’t come truly from your Authentic Soul and when you don’t truly come from your Authentic Soul, you can’t grow and if you’re not growing, your “Impostors” come out and try to sell you. And trust me, people can smell an “Impostor” a mile away. So the deal is that you have to do the work but then forget it and jump off the cliff, leaving your “notes” behind. Whatever you need is inside you and whoever will be drawn to you and your work will find you because you DID do the work, you did not allow your “Impostors” to do it, just to check it off your to-do list, so you could make money.
However, don’t get me wrong. It’s important to prepare. I teach a class called “Dare to Prepare” but you need more than preparing your skill technically; you also need to attune yourself spiritually. I found this to be true especially for my actor and speaker clientele. Prepare your instrument but when you go in to an audition, just be you and forget all the prep; trust that it’ll be a part of you.
Now that I’ve slowed down a lot in November and took time to just be present and detox, I’ve found new inspiration bursting to shine through. An energy that is fresh and new and the stale energy is gone and no longer needed. Ahhhh … PURE BLISS.